Hey folks!
Sorry it's been a few days, had a funeral to go to and it was just a rough few days.

Needless to say though, I have a whole new appreciation for life this week. Truth is, we all hurt sometimes. But I have always believed everything happens for a reason, so I'll learn from this like I try to do with everything. Life is much to short to keep being so concerned with my little problems. Yes it hurts, yes I will probably talk about it more again, but only to cope. From now on, any sadness is a coping mechanism, not a woe is me...

Have a wonderful evening dears!
Always
-Vivian

Hey everyone,
So today was long, and now I can't sleep so it isn't gonna get any better.
Basically today I went to work, then came home and got ready for a dinner date. I'd say that went well, but the truth is I didn't feel anything but the restraint from trying to hold back tears....Have you ever felt like your heart is being slowly tighten and is being slowly dissipated into a huge empty hole? It feels so painful you can't breathe...yeah, it was one of those things. And don't get me wrong, it had nothing to do with the date. He's a nice guy and we're going to another party together tomorrow. The date was normal. But I was unattached, numb, fading in and out between pain and strength. The guy held my hand and it just didn't fit, not like his...we hugged and I felt like i couldn't ever fit into place, there was no safety in the feeling, not like when I hug him. Heartbreak is torture. But all I can do is hold it together right?
The show must go on...
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Sorry to bring you guys down with only my second post.
I did have a good time with a great friend, had a few drinks. It was a good time.

I'll be more inspirational another time guys, I just have not strength left tonight, I'm sorry.
Have a beautiful evening and a great day tomorrow guys.

Always
-Vivian

My first thought...

To anyone out there interested...

I've never been the sort of girl who has blogged. I'm not even certain how this works, actually, but I have always had a lot to say and am curious to know if anyone would be interested in listening. SO here this goes...

 Hello, I'm Vivian.  A few details about my life are: I'm a student studying Theatre arts, which will probably come though a lot in this blog I love to talk about my passions and theatre is a big one. I'm a cake decorator, yes "professionally" I am certified by the company I work for as a certified cake decorator and have been decorating cakes for over a year, I'm oddly quite talented and I love doing it. I aspire to be a director when I finish school and also I have considered becoming a playwright, and acting; but, directing is my true goal for now. Well I suppose that's a pretty good little bit of information for now, you'll learn more about me later. Now for my actual thoughts from today.

Today, well technically yesterday,  is the 7th of June 2013, I've always sort of had this irrational belief that the 7th of any month is always a good day. My lucky number is 7 so I'm convinced that's how it works. Truth of the matter is I know there is no power within the number of the days of the month; but I'll continue to have faith in my lucky day every month because I enjoy the glimmer of hope that at least one day of the month will be entirely wonderful. I can't say today was wonderful, I'm still struggling internally with a mess of emotions from my recent heartbreak. Today was just a day I had to cry. It's okay to cry, of course, I just wish it would stop already. I'll talk more about the heartache another time, I"m actually writing quite late and should get to bed. But until tomorrow I leave you with a question I asked myself today:

Do you ever wonder if anyone can look into your eyes and see what is really going on in your mind? 

I believe the eyes tell everything to those interested in knowing.

Always,

-Vivian