Hey everyone,
So today was long, and now I can't sleep so it isn't gonna get any better.
Basically today I went to work, then came home and got ready for a dinner date. I'd say that went well, but the truth is I didn't feel anything but the restraint from trying to hold back tears....Have you ever felt like your heart is being slowly tighten and is being slowly dissipated into a huge empty hole? It feels so painful you can't breathe...yeah, it was one of those things. And don't get me wrong, it had nothing to do with the date. He's a nice guy and we're going to another party together tomorrow. The date was normal. But I was unattached, numb, fading in and out between pain and strength. The guy held my hand and it just didn't fit, not like his...we hugged and I felt like i couldn't ever fit into place, there was no safety in the feeling, not like when I hug him. Heartbreak is torture. But all I can do is hold it together right?
The show must go on...
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Sorry to bring you guys down with only my second post.
I did have a good time with a great friend, had a few drinks. It was a good time.

I'll be more inspirational another time guys, I just have not strength left tonight, I'm sorry.
Have a beautiful evening and a great day tomorrow guys.

Always
-Vivian